Gosh, I have been gone through the same thing
for these 3 continuous Chinese New Year! For the past 2 years, I was
celebrating my Chinese New Year in the hospital and I was thinking that this
year I would have a healthy and cheerful CNY celebration with my family and
friends. I was wrong. I only have spent 2 days of CNY with my family and I got
admitted on the third day of CNY, i.e. 12/2/2013.
I was having the thought of having a happy CNY
for me in this year due to I was feeling alright as when I had returned for my
chest check up just a few days before the CNY and my chest specialist was
telling me that I could have my CNY at home this year. Both of us were happy
for that. However, when I met him in the ward after I admitted, he was shocked
to see me as he said that I looked ok on the day of check-up which was just few
days ago. I then answered him back “I also don’t know!”
So, here I am in the hospital for about 19
days. I yet to know when I could be discharged as my case has become
complicated. I saw the patients who were having the same diagnosed with me had
discharged already, most of the patients who were same ward as I were either
mostly discharged or transferred to another room. Thus, I have met many new
patients around me.
The sickness that I am diagnosed is called
pneumothorax, which means the collapse of lungs. This is a sudden attacked to
the patient, the person who easily have it are those who are weak, lungs
problem or thin and tall. Mostly this is more attacked to the men. However, I was
the unlucky as my lungs are weak and I was having the attacked on the middle of
night. I did not realise I am having pneumothorax until I went to the hospital
for treatment and the doctors examined me and given me the treatment. FYI, after attacked by pneumothorax, the
person would feel pain and having shortness of breath. When taking a deep
breath, it would feel very painful.
I was having good condition after the
treatment but then it becomes complicated. Thus I would need sometime more for
my recover. I cannot do anything now but to wait for my lungs to recover. This is
the reason I am in the hospital for more than 2 weeks.
I really don’t understand why did I have my
CNY in the hospital in these years, is it a fate for me?! A coincident timing?!
I really wish it is NOT as I am frightened to stay in the hospital and it would
make people depress easily, especially when saw the patient dead, or in severe
condition, e.g. Cancer patients, or the family cries. I really do not want to see
all those happenings repeatedly.
I am always telling myself to stay strong and
hang on; all those incidents would not affect me. But I also not sure that how
long could I hold on for it as I feel depressing sometimes.
Lastly, GOD please helps me to have speed recovery
as I miss my home, my own bed.
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